What do I do?

I have one question...What should we do? We will take any advice that anyone gives us right now!

Last night my ex-husband's father called me. I never had a problem with him or anyone else in the family (except David) for that matter. We talked for about 30 minutes. They haven't seen, talked to, or even sent a card to Anna since she was 2 years old. Anna has no clue who they are. I have told her that she has biological grandparents that are her biological father's parents but beyond that she has no interest in them.

Last night Dave said that the reason that they have had no contact was because of David (my ex). They were "protecting her". The thing is David was living in Colorado and Florida (running form the law). I am completely torn and I have been agonizing over this since we got off the phone. I really wanted to ask him to come up with a better excuse then contact me later. I mean they could have sent cards etc... with out David knowing or it being traced. Phone calls could have happened, hell David knows my phone number (he has to so I don't get in trouble). Well they want to see her again and he was calling her his baby and he said that he has got a lot of b-days & Christmas' to make up for. I really was offended by that part, how could you call someone "your baby" when you haven't given a damn about her for the last 7 1/2 years of her life!!!?

I don't want Anna to hate me when she is older for not giving her the opportunity to meet her biological grandparents and to get to know them. On the other hand I feel like I am being slapped in the face and that I am going to have to slap some super great people in the face as well. Anna has grandparents that have been in her life since the time she came into this world and then she has grandparents that didn't have to be apart of her life but they have taken her in as if she had been theirs since the beginning.

Michael and I talked about it last night. Michael is her daddy and any decision regarding her should be made by the both of us...right? We are kind of stuck and I think he stayed quiet because he didn't want to express his personal thoughts about the situation. I know that a part of me just wants to say "go to hell" and "you missed your chance" but I know that as a christian that isn't the right way to handle it. I think about the emotional effect this will have on MY BABY! I as a mother have to protect her & I am really feeling that motherly instinct right now! I am also feeling a bit angry about the whole thing too. What ever I choose to do I will do it with Michael.

Oh my GOD!

Oh my God! I am still struggling with morning sickness! I am going to be one of those women that suffer with it the entire pregnancy. Yay! I can already feel the babies move, now don't get me wrong it isn't strong by any means and it only happens when they are getting squished. I will admit it is pretty cool to feel them this early on. I am now about 3.5 months prego and I feel like I am about 5. I get hungry quite often but there is just no room to eat anything. I have started to eat small meals more frequently but with me being so sick & all the food aversions that gets a little difficult at times.

I can't wait to see what the rest of this pregnancy will hold for us!

Update

I am so happy for Candi and Wes, their beautiful little girl was born yesterday. She is beautiful!

Well I went to the Dr on Monday for my regular check up. I have lost a total of 4 lbs so far, but was told with severe morning sickness that was common in the 1st trimester. The bleeding has stopped now but I am still on "restriction" as Michael calls it. I have decided that I am going to try to gain about about 1 lb a week. Since I am overweight to begin with I don't have to gain as much but with twins it is still recommended. We have come to accept that the babies will probably be preemies, so in that regard my goal is to get their weight to about 5lbs each and make it to about 36 weeks. Michael & I were told that the goal that I had set was a big goal but we should try to reach it anyway. They are going to start measuring the babies at 32 weeks. Pray that they won't have to take them to early, they need their time in the oven.

Big Scare

Last night I woke up to go to the bathroom....imagine that....and when I wiped there was blood. I totally freaked out but it took a few minutes to really hit me. I calmly called the Dr's. office and the on call nurse asked me questions and said to be at the Dr's. around 8:15 in the morning. I said okay and went back to bed, then it hit me. Michael and I were up. Neither one of us could sleep and I could do nothing but lay on my left side and pray. Well I got an US done as soon as I got there and both babies are fine; active, growing at the rate they should be and their little heart beats are all what they should be. We were extremely happy and relieved. The Dr wasn't sure what the cause was but I am to watch it and take it very easy. I have a desk job and I have to take it easy and not be on my feet unless I have to be. I guess it is kind of like bed rest. I guess having a desk job helps with being able to avoid true bed rest. I just thank God the babies are okay!

interesting

I read the article that Brandi linked to in her blog regarding Obama needing to act like a President. Well I agree. I think he is just trying to get his 15 minutes of fame right now which politically is turning out to devastating to the country as a country. If he wanted to be an actor and be on TV he should have moved to Hollywood and pursued that career instead.

I saw a sign yesterday in a yard that read "A government that controls it's health care controls it's people". Think about it...if we are made by force to accept a health care plan regardless if it is one that fits our needs or not then yes we are being controlled. The current 'leaders' of this once great nation have already stated that if you don't accept the health care plan then there will be a fine and if you don't pay the fine then you get hauled of to jail.....hum sounds like somebody is forcing people to do what they want (controlling). When I was growing up I was taught not to boss people around and that you make more friends with sugar than you do with vinegar.

Michael made a very good statement yesterday while we were talking about things. There is a lot of opposition to Obama it seems from the south. You know we do tend to cling to our guns, religion, and our constitutional rights down here. "'They' say the people from the south are backwards and dumb but pretty soon "they" will be saying the people from the south are free." I had to agree with Michael and I figure that the "resistance" will begin in Texas seeing as how in they are the only state with the stipulation in their constitution that they can secede from the union at anytime (not to mention the good ol' boys down there). Well I for one like being free and want my children to grow up free too.